I woke up feeling like crap today. Now I'm at work feeling like crap today. And I'm really, really tired. And nauseous. I hate being nauseous. What sucks about feeling like crap is the fact that I really HAVE to eat even though I don't feel like it. I'll put it off as long as I can, but I should really put some chicken into my tummy. Either that or drink a protein shake and I'm really not up for that right now. At least I'm leaving work early today.

I volunteered to take my mom to her kidney doctor this afternoon because my sister has a really bad head cold. I thought I'd take a long lunch, but found out that the appointment lasts from 1pm-4 or 5pm so I'm going to work a half-day instead. I'm so not in the mood to be at work today anyway.

I had a self-confidence talk with Jo yesterday. Apparently there is a rule at school that states "treat others like you want to be treated" and she takes that very seriously. If someone is mean to her, she is deeply hurt and upset. She won't stand up for herself or say anything back because she doesn't want to violate the rule. However, when she is at home and her sister picks on her, she is mean right back to her. They fight like cats and dogs, fists and feet fly and everything. So, I sat her down and said to her..."you don't take shit off your sister, why would you take it from some kid you barely know?" She gave me some shit about the school rule. I said "look, if someone is mean to you, you need to stand up for yourself and say something. Don't just stand there looking like you got your feelings hurt." Apparently she keeps trying to talk to some girl at school and the girl always says something like "it's none of your business". I told Josie to just give the girl a nasty look and say "whatEVER, Taliya" and walk off. Who the fuck names their kid Taliya anyway. That's almost as bad as Shaniqua. I have got to get Josie to grow a backbone.

Ironically, JR has given me the same speech about people in my life who walk on me. He says "you don't hesitate to get mad and yell at me, why won't you do it to anyone else?" and he is right. I've always been way too nice to people and have been a doormat for a long time. Fortunately, with the weight loss, my self-esteem and confidence have grown tremendously and it's easier to take that advice now. Now I just gotta get my daughter to do the same thing. Roo's already got it down...she'll get right in your face and tell you how it is. I got no worries there...til she starts getting in fights in Kindergarten next year. Can't wait!